Uhmmm.
I'm still cool...got some good news today...heard that I'll be getting R3400 which my old job still owes me from unclaimed annual leave. There goes the deposit for the new flat.Got two stories in the newspaper which is aight for my first week but I really want to go out there and kill them- literally that is.
Yesterday went to church with my girlfriend and the experience was as expected and also a bit suprising when people started feeling guilty, crying all over the place. I just don't get it- tears won't bring you redemption. Going to church won't make a better person out of you it has to come from the heart.
Sitting there in that church I felt like the biggest fraud in the land. The pastor hadn't convinced me that there really was a GOD...it only confirmed by belief that people seek salvation in bad times when they can't find answers to the complex problems that life seeks from them.
I'm not going to judge people who are Christians- my girlfriend included- but I won't be ignorant to the real cause of all problems. I believe that problems that people face, mostly psychological, arise out of ones conditions. How to manage these problems is where I differ from churches. I don't believe that praying a million times will make things right...just believe that it can happen and make changes in you life to accomodate the change.
I also believe in the power of meditation...by simply relaxing and using breath control people can lower their stress levels which makes living in the 21st century such a bitch.
